i let my mind wander

Hello my beautiful magical people! I know it’s been two whole weeks since my last post, but it just took me forever to settle into writing so much on a daily basis that I just couldn’t get anything finished. Whoops. Anyways, I *think* I’ve gotten into a bit of a better routine now, and I’m writing much easier, so I can start expecting more content with less of the struggle.

Writing Insanity

Firstly… NaNoWriMo! Yes, the famous challenge of 50,000-words-in-30-days. That one. I’ve participated for the last five or six years now and even do the Camp Nano version sometimes when they happen in April and July. I’m just a sucker for a good (and difficult!) challenge idea. Plus I’m terrible at finishing the first draft of anything, so it’s a good way to get at least most of the way there. This year I’m working on a post-apocalyptic story idea and it’s actually been really interesting. I like trying different genres because they get me out of my comfort zone and really make me think about setting and character development in a totally different way. So far, November hasn’t gone quite as well as I would like it to, but I’ve been getting more and more steady about writing on a regular basis. Maybe it helps that I have the ability to work on it while I’m on the clock (shhhh) so that it’s not something I’m trying to squish into my spare time. I’m still a lot more behind than I want to be, but like I mentioned earlier, it’s been hard to get back into the habit of writing this much on a daily basis. I’m getting much better though! I’ll try to start keeping you updated on social media over the weekend and throughout the rest of the month.


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Mental Health Notes

Next, I wanted to ramble just a bit about how my mental health has been since the last time I posted about it. And… it’s been a bit up and down. I’m trying to stay aware of where my mind is at during the day so that I can adjust my thoughts accordingly and I think it is helping. I try to check in with myself before I leave for work so that I can pack essential oils or herbal medications, and I’m starting to add at least a small amount of meditation somewhere into my day. Baby steps, really, but coming out of a dark spiral always gives me some new insight into my triggers and weaknesses. This time, I want to really try to implement strategies into my life that are extremely consistent, whether it’s a good day or a bad day.

On a related note, I’ve also been thinking about my mindset going into the holidays. I think to a certain extent I am getting excited about the holiday season, but I’m also starting to hit the anxiety portion of that excitement. So it feels like I’m yo-yoing a little, going back and forth from excited to anxious to apathetic sometimes. The stress of plans and schedules and gift giving is a lot, but I’m trying to stay on top of it and enjoy things for what they are in the moment that they are.


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Where have my thoughts been?

Since I’ve been working on focusing my thoughts and just being aware of them in general, I’m noticing a lot of trends. Mainly, I tend to avoid things. A lot. Many times, I don’t want to stress myself out, so I just avoid anything that has to do with… say… the recent election, personal finances, planning out the distant future, social situations, etc. The list could go on for a long

while. And while it’s good that I’m working on not being stressed, it’s also not a good thing to be avoiding things all the time. Sometimes we have to face the issues and actually deal with them. Running away isn’t a good option. But more on that another time…

What projects am I working on?

First of all, while I was writing this post up, I started thinking that it might be fun to write up this kind of post, in a shorter vision, on a weekly basis. It’s something that I’ll be thinking about. If you have a thought about it, let me know and I’ll add it to my notes.

All of the writing I’ve been doing this month has gotten my mind on blogging and novels, so I’m definitely working up some new projects in those areas. Mostly I’m just excited to be writing again – I forgot how much I love words!

In my personal life, I’ve started trying to learn again, since I’ve missed college lately (more on that another time). I’m also working on sorting out a manageable system so that between me and the husband, we can keep the house looking presentable, the kitties happy, and our schedules simplified. We’ve been discussing our options for the future, such as living options after our lease runs out next year, at what point we’re going to start a family, and a myriad of other things. Life choices – basically we’re still figuring out what married life is going to look like for us, so that’s always fun!

What have you been working on or focused on this past week?


Love and kindness,

Katharine Marie

Posted by Katharine Espinosa

Katharine is a freelance writer, editor, and aspiring author. She loves coffee, chocolate, cats, and riding her horses on the weekends. She lives in rural Texas with her husband and daughter.

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