The Adventure of a Lifetime

Hello beautiful readers! Friday is finally here again!

Before anyone has the chance to wonder or ask about it, I have absolutely zero plans of this blog shifting to any kind of parenting, marriage, or mommy blog. This always has and will continue to be a lifestyle and mental health blog. I will talk about those things periodically simply because they are part of my life now and they affect my mental state. I share major life changes or announcements on this blog and I hint at things sometimes, but beyond that I’m not interested in sharing the details of my children’s lives on the internet, sorry.

Now that that’s out of the way, I do want to discuss how pregnancy has been for me so far, especially because it is such an emotional, mostly good yet sometimes stressful time to be in. The short version is that just about everything has been harder than I expected, but I regret nothing and I’m still so happy and excited about our tiny human.

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We’re on the adventure of our lives!

The first ten or twelve weeks were pretty rough, I’ve mentioned that before, so I’m so, so, so happy that I’m finally getting to enjoy being pregnant. That was honestly all I wanted was to love being pregnant. I’m not sure why it was so important to me, but I am definitely glad that I can finally experience that.

Next week will mark our ‘halfway point’ and for so many reasons I want time to slow down just a little bit. I’m excited to meet the tiny human we created, but I’ve also been loving how much I’ve gotten to bond with the husband through this whole experience. I love being able to feel all the growth spurts and the tiny kicks (seriously, they are so tiny right now- its adorable!) and I just know that I’m going to miss all the little things after the birth.

Finally feeling better and having more energy has been really good for my anxieties too instead of when I’m stressing over every little pain or feeling all the time. I’m sore all the time, sure, and as I get bigger I’m getting more uncomfortable, but it’s not the same as it was at first. I think being able to stress a whole lot less has been a big thing in being able to enjoy being pregnant too.

Last week, on Good Friday actually, we were scheduled for a sonogram and as someone who does not like doctors or tests or anything like that, I was more apprehensive than I was excited. But the experience was so different from any I’ve ever had – our birth center has a sonographer that comes down for the appointments. He was so lovely about making everything relaxed, explaining exactly what we were looking at, and answering all our questions.

Of course, the big question was whether we were having a girl or a boy…

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And… it’s a girl!

We are absolutely over the moon. Of course we had talked about either option and we would have been thrilled with a boy as well, but I think deep down we both really did want to have a girl the first time around. So everything turned out perfectly!

That’s not to say that I’m not terrified. I mean, I’m not a huge fan of the way the world is right now and if I really think about it, its easy to feel a huge pressure to raise her right. Maybe that’s part of my reason for saying that she can stay safely inside of me for as long as she wants to, LOL! I’m scared of messing things up, of not giving her all the right tools to take care of and handle herself in the real world.

But my excitement still far surpasses my fears. When my anxiety takes a back seat, I can see how big of an opportunity we have here. I want to be this little girl’s mom and I want to be good at it. Her daddy is already so in love with her that I know she’s going to have him doing anything she wants – she’s already doing that, if I’m being honest!

A lot of the time it feels like a huge jumble of emotions inside me, and maybe part of that is due to the hormones, but it’s also such a massive combination of hopes and dreams, ideas and wonderments. We don’t exactly know what we’re getting ourselves into, but we’re ready for the adventure of a lifetime.

I only hope I can be the mom that this beautiful precious girl is going to need.


Love and kindness, everyone!

Katharine Marie

 

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