One month of #momlife

Hello lovely readers!

Hopefully all is going well with everyone! Last week, my sweet baby girl was officially a month old and I’m still sitting here wondering where in the world the time is going. I know everyone warned me that time would pass quicker once I was a parent, but I didn’t really anticipate how hard that would be to accept. Even though I still technically have a newborn, I already miss those first couple of weeks where the only thing she wanted to do was snuggle up against me and sleep. She still does that, but she’s also much more interested in seeing everything and making noise. I love all of it, but sometimes I still want to go back to the first bit. I loved that part so much.


But I didn’t start writing today in order to ramble about how adorable the Tiniest Princess is… no, I wanted to focus more on how being a mom has changed life around for me. There was a reason why I didn’t plan much in the way of projects for this last portion of the year – I was trying to make room for what I knew would be a huge shift.

In a lot of ways it definitely has been that huge shift. Some days I barely recognize who I am now and some days I feel exactly like the person I was before. Once I came down from the hurricane of hormones and started settling into the routine of taking care of a little one it was easier to start recognizing myself again.

I very quickly remembered how much I enjoy to write and I’ve started not only blogging again, but journaling on my own as well. I don’t always have the best memory and I wanted to be sure that I had some kind of record of all the things I’m feeling now in these early days of motherhood. The short span of time in the evenings between putting her down for bed and going to bed myself is a nice time to do that writing – that’s actually what I’m doing right now!

Over this last weekend we went to my parents for an afternoon, which meant I could give the baby to my mom for long enough to spend some time hanging out with my horse. I haven’t been able to do that in months, so it was very refreshing. Probably partly because of the fresh air – that’s the most I’ve gotten since before this baby got here!

Next week I’ll be going back to work and I’m definitely not ready. It helps a lot that my mom is going to be the one taking care of the Tiniest Princess, but it’s still so hard to leave her. Hopefully everything works out and I’ll be able to stay home again in a few months, but for now it’s going to be a big adjustment to go back. I’m still really nervous about how this is all going to go, so we’ll see what happens.

It’s definitely a long process right now of learning how to manage everything. I feel very overwhelmed a lot because I’m still trying to jump back into everything all at once and it’s just not possible to do that while I’m taking care of the little one too, so I’m having to learn the balance. That and how to take care of myself too, since being overwhelmed can quickly lead to feeling lonely and anxious and a little bit panicky. So staying away from feeling overwhelmed seems like a good idea, right?

Basically, the general gist is that it’s definitely been a struggle but I love being a mom and I would trade it for anything. Adaline is the sweetest, most huggable little thing I’ve ever seen and I absolutely adore her. I can’t imagine what I would do without her now.

Love and kindness,

Katharine Marie

Posted by Katharine Espinosa

Katharine is a freelance writer, editor, and aspiring author. She loves coffee, chocolate, cats, and riding her horses on the weekends. She lives in rural Texas with her husband and daughter.

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