Change is Coming

Hi there, wonderful dreaming folks!

Just so you all know, I’ve started this blog post about four different times. Two of those times were entirely different topics. Let’s just say I’ve had a bit of writers block this week. So a ramble about the traffic jam inside my head was warranted, I think.

Anywho. I’ve been looking ahead a lot now that I’m two weeks away from leaving my full time job. It’s brought up a variety of different emotions, some that really surprised me.

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For the most part, I’m honestly really excited. Ever since I came back to work after maternity leave, I’ve found it really hard to leave the baby in the mornings. My mom is loving all the time with her, but it’s still hard for me to come home at night and have to learn about what new thing she did that day instead of getting to experience it firsthand.

I’m also feeling a little nervous because I’m giving up my own reliable income. I trust The Husband to provide and take care of us, but regardless, it feels a little like giving up a piece of my independence. And yet on the other hand, I’m so, so, SO happy for this opportunity because I’ll finally have the extra bit of freedom to figure out how to work for myself like I’ve been wanting to do.

Of course, it’s easy to think that I’ll have plenty of time to do whatever I want, that I’ll be able to keep the house as clean as I want to. All of that. And I know it’s not true because I’ll be keeping The Tiny Princess alive and parenting is tough, y’all. This new phase of life is going to come with its own set of challenges and I am so very aware of that fact.

But I’m still excited because I’ll actually have the time to pursue my horse hobby again. With the horses living on my parents land, I’ll be able to bring The Princess to see my mom for a couple hours while I ride. That will be fun too, of course.

Basically, I’m having a lot of emotions right now. The fact that I haven’t been sleeping that great doesn’t help because then I’m even more emotionally unstable. But I think we’ve gotten over this most recent sleep regression and things are evening out again. This is a big change for our little family, but it’s going to be a blessing too. I can feel it.


What big change are you starting this decade with?

Love, light, and kindness,

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