the energy to be mindful

Hello beautiful readers!

In November of 2018, only a couple of months after I first launched this website, I wrote a post called Mindful Monday. It was meant to be a weekly check-in post to help keep myself accountable for whatever goals I was making. I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with it when I wrote that post, but it evolved into something lovely. According to my archives, I wrote a total of 27 posts under that tag – Mindful Monday.

And then, when I was sorting through content ideas for 2020, I left the Mindful Monday idea off the table. I enjoyed writing those posts, but something compelled me to go in a different direction for a little while.

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My goal for 2020 was to dig a little deeper, to bring some more focus back to mental health and how it affects daily life. And for all intents and purposes, I didn’t feel I needed to expend my energy on a weekly/biweekly accountability post when I was doing so much better at keeping up with my planner. So I decided monthly was enough of a check-in for right now, and wanted to focus my writing energy on as many other posts as I could get to.

Being mindful can mean so many different things, and I’m learning to practice mindfulness in different ways. Sometimes it means meditation, sometimes it means just taking a deep breath and finding a way to focus on how things are right now and not how they might be in the future. This has been very important during the pandemic since everyone is under very new and different forms of stress.

I still think at some point I will bring back the idea of my Mindful Monday posts, but this season of my life is very different – everything is moving so much more quickly, I have less time in my day than ever before, and as I work on managing my perfectionism and control issues, my simple planner is more than enough for the moment. That’s if I were to use the title in the same way that I did before. I am considering changing the focus and writing the occasional informative mental health post and the title could be used there too – this idea might come back a little further in the future. We will just have to wait and see.

I follow a variety of different blogs and it’s been nice to see that I’m not the only one having feelings about everything that’s going on. It’s so hard right now not to see the chaos of the entire world and feel an impending panic attack because of it. It’s easy to feel sorry for ourselves at times because we can’t go to our favorite restaurant or just go shopping for the fun of it, and then, if you’re like me, you feel guilty for it because “at least you’re safe and can stay home.” It’s a delicate balance of being incredibly grateful that we are financially stable enough for The Husband to spend a month on furlough and still recover and also just wishing things would go back to normal. It’s complaining about wanting sit-down Mexican food while at the same time planning for another month-six weeks of social distancing for us personally, even after Texas reopens. There are lots of complex emotions surrounding this whole situation and there’s no need to try and explain them away because it’s totally normal to feel this way.

This blog post has been a complex jumble of thoughts and emotions too and it’s turned out nothing like what I planned. And I think I’m okay with that and I’ll go ahead and post it because someday in the future I’ll flip through and contemplate everything that we went through during this season. And it will be a good reminder of how easily we take things for granted.


Love, light, and kindness,

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