Hello Again! A 2020 Life Update…

Hello, my darlings!

It’s been all of two weeks since the last time I posted, but in a lot of ways, it feels like much longer. Life has just been so hectic lately. I’ve got half a dozen drafts sitting in my writing program waiting to be finished, but since I’ve been doing more focused posts lately, I thought it would be good to just sit down and have a chat about how life has been going. I guess its not really a chat though if I’m the only one talking. Eh, whatever.

2020 has been one of the most unpredictable years that I can remember. Nothing, absolutely nothing, seems to be going according to plan for anyone at all. It’s been the year of uncomfortable conversations, loss, frustrations, and true colors, in my opinion. But it hasn’t all been bad, some of it has been very good as well! I had a whole list of things that I wanted to do this year, many of which involved stepping out of my comfort zone, being more interactive with people, etc, etc. I’ve definitely been pushed out of my comfort zone, but not at all in the way I was anticipating!

Blogging

Blogging has been both good and frustrating for me in the last few months. For one, it’s an easy way to just write about what I’m feeling or thinking. But it’s also been difficult to know how or what to say – which is also a good thing since I’ve been able to hone my writing skills through it. I’ve had a hard time because there are a handful of things that I choose to just avoid talking about completely on here, and yet those things have been some of the most volatile things in my life this year. It’s hard NOT to talk about them! And I still won’t, at least not for the time being. Maybe sometime in the future. Not sure yet.

I’ve been having some internal issues with the website stuff lately and I also haven’t updated things in a very long time. That means in all likelihood, I’ll be posting a bit more sporadically for the rest of September to give myself a chance to catch up on the background and website things. I’ll do my best to keep my social media updated though.

School

I’m still taking classes. One at a time since SNHU does 8-week terms for online students. I’ve been wading around in literature classes trying to find my footing and I think its finally starting to click for me. As of right now, I’m on my fourth week of a “Nature Writers” course, which has been very fascinating and also strangely calming for me. I mean, who wouldn’t want to read poetry about how amazing and beautiful nature is and then talk about it, right? Yeah, exactly that.

I’m approximately a year and a half from graduating if I continue the pace I’m at right now, which is very encouraging. I’ve considered adding a minor to my degree, which would extend that time frame, of course, but I’m waiting for a few other life things to fall into place before I make that decision.

Tiny Princess

I keep trying to write a full post about this but just can’t get through it. Long story short though, my baby girl is a whole year old now! She is such a big girl, she’s starting to stand on her own and will probably be walking pretty soon. She loved her little birthday party and acted like a complete pro about opening her presents. That was pretty funny. She’s obsessed with books, loves to watch (and dance!) to music videos, and thinks that the cats are the best. Her personality is really starting to shine through now and she is SO silly, always looking for something to laugh at or ways to make others laugh. It’s so adorable.

Last week she ended up getting sick for the first time ever. she had a fever for a few days and just was miserable and exhausted for a few more.  Thankfully, she’s almost completely over it now – she’s still just a little more tired than usual. Hopefully, by the end of the week, she’ll be 100% again!

Mental Health

Overall, I’ve been doing okay. Last week, with the kiddo being sick, I didn’t sleep much and my anxiety kept building until I had a bit of a meltdown. The Husband proved just how awesome he is, and now I’m back to feeling much more like myself. Hopefully, I can make it to my therapy appointment tomorrow because I haven’t had one in a few weeks and it’s still a vital piece to being my best self. Seriously y’all. Go. To. Therapy. You probably need it.

I’m slowly trying to get back out of the house and do a few things again, which is now less about COVID and more about me and my anti-social tendencies. Masks and social distancing doesn’t bother me in the least, it’s just the talking to people that keeps me to myself now. I’ve been able to see a few friends lately though and once I get myself into those situations, it’s actually refreshing. It’s still easy to blame everything on COVID, but honestly? It’s me. I don’t want to leave the house. Something to work on, for sure!

Life in General

This post is getting plenty long enough, so I’ll close it up in a minute. But overall, life right now is a nice blend of the daily keeping-on and some progress towards the future. I think we’re getting a little anxious over here to start moving forward with something – anything at this point! – but this year makes for slow progress. Maybe things will start happening soon. We can only hope, right?

How is your life going right now? Are you feeling stuck? Tired? Impatient? Or is everything going perfectly and wonderfully for you?


I’m sending you all the love, the socially distant hugs, and lots of optimism!

 

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