Rise Above Difficulties

Hello, my beautiful dreamers,
I’ve been maintaining the status quo lately in my personal life… not pushing the envelope very much, even though there are things that need to be done. It’s been easier that way, not so stressful or overwhelming.
But the problem with the status quo is that it doesn’t go anywhere. It stays the same. And that makes me restless. So, a few days of this and I start to get antsy. I feel on edge.

This week has been a roller coaster. My hormones are on their own little adventure, so who knows when they’ll get themselves back in line. I finally started the process of getting some very much needed dental work done, which is great in its own way, but also super expensive. Plus I am deathly afraid of going to the dentist, so add a few extra panic attacks in there because of that. The diagnostic tests we ran on my sick kitty cat came back negative, which is good but also bad because we still don’t have an answer. Plus the next thing on my vet’s list of likely possibilities is a nerve issue combined with some tumor/cancer thing – he’s really great at explaining everything to me, but somehow I still don’t always understand all the scientific stuff. Either way, having a sick kitty is stressful. And the Tiny Princess might have an ear infection? Really not sure, but her naps have been horrid this week, so I’m chalking it up to that and breaking out the garlic drops!

I’m just tired this week. I don’t mean for this to turn into a complaining rant because this is my blog and I try to stay positive and happy. So basically I’m writing all of that to say that I’ve just been trying to MAINTAIN this week. Survive isn’t my favorite word, so I’m just going to say MAINTAIN. I’m not moving forward, but I’m also not losing ground. It would be easy to lose ground right now, to slip into a depressive spiral that would be even more difficult to get out.
But you know what? Just sitting here with my laptop and my cup of coffee and typing those paragraphs out? I feel better. I haven’t even posted this yet and I already feel better. It’s amazing how much of the stress goes away when you just get it off your chest.

Everyone has a different way of doing that. Some people like to talk, some people like to punch things, whatever. I like to write them down. I journal. I write short stories about my feelings.
Next week is going to be better. I hope anyway – it looks like the kiddo is headed towards a nap transition, which might feel like hell for a few weeks, but at least we can get a fresh start after some downtime this weekend. Right? I’m going to take her outside now so we can take some pictures because today she is THIRTEEN months old. Just…. HOW?

What do you do when you have a rough week? What helps you rise above?

Love and light,
Katharine Marie

Posted by Katharine Espinosa

Katharine is a freelance writer, editor, and aspiring author. She loves coffee, chocolate, cats, and riding her horses on the weekends. She lives in rural Texas with her husband and daughter.

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