2020

A Recap

Hello, my wonderful readers,
It’s been a couple of weeks since my last post and although I’ve been too preoccupied to worry about it, I noticed as soon as I opened up my writing program that I had missed this. It’s therapeutic to write about things sometimes and since I’ve been too busy to really write at all, even in my journals, this is great.
The week before last, I was dealing with some major migraines that just would. not. leave. I hadn’t had that happen in quite a while, so I guess it was overdue. In reality, I need to see my chiropractor more often because chasing a toddler is more draining than you might think. Continue reading →

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Rise Above Difficulties

Hello, my beautiful dreamers,
I’ve been maintaining the status quo lately in my personal life… not pushing the envelope very much, even though there are things that need to be done. It’s been easier that way, not so stressful or overwhelming.
But the problem with the status quo is that it doesn’t go anywhere. It stays the same. And that makes me restless. So, a few days of this and I start to get antsy. I feel on edge. Continue reading →

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2020 Quarter Two Update

Hello, lovelies!

Let’s be real – how is it almost July already? I did a double-take earlier this week when I looked at my blogging schedule and saw this recap on there. Time moves so fast.

When I wrote my Quarter One update, we were just seeing the beginning stages of the disaster that is a world pandemic (here in Texas anyway, I know that other places were already being hit hard). I don’t think any of us had any idea that we would still be dealing with this chaos three months later.

With that in mind though, my perspective has shifted, and I’m eyeing my goals/objectives for this year with a different thought process. I had plans to do all sorts of things this spring, but none of that happened. Some are just off the table for 2020 altogether, and some are just pushed to the fall. Hopefully.

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2020 Objectives: The Top Three

For this year, I had three main objectives… improve my home and social life, find ways to work from home, and start riding my horse again.

Our home life is actually quite lovely right now. The Husband stayed home on furlough for six weeks and it was an interesting time. We really enjoyed the extra family time and he got to be there and watch the kiddo pulling up and crawling for the first time. It’s hard to believe she only started doing that less than two months ago – she’s a beast now, and fast!

The lockdown/quarantine/stay at home/whatever thing has really blocked my efforts at overcoming social anxiety. The less opportunity I have to interact with people, the less comfortable I am doing it. I’ve reached the point now where I find it easier to stay home and never speak to anyone ever again. Not ideal, so it’s something I’ll need to work on again. Once I actually leave the house. If that ever happens.

While this month has been slow, I stayed pretty busy with work during the other two months of this quarter, which was a really nice bonus. I chose to go back to school this year, so its been hard to really make headway on creating my own home business apart from my side job, but I think it’s a good situation for the time being.

The third main objective I had for this year was to get back into riding again, and its definitely been happening! Besides a handful of weeks where the weather was just too terrible to be outside, I’ve been able to get out to the farm at least two-three times a week this quarter. I’m feeling very out of shape and all that, but I’ve been riding consistently and that feels great!

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2020 Objectives: All the Rest of Life

I’ve been able to read more, although my motivation comes in spurts, but I’ve gotten through several books, both fiction and nonfiction. I’m thinking of doing a reading list blog post sometime this summer yet!

It’s been difficult to be consistent with my daily spiritual practices the last while. The Tiny Princess went through a spurt of no longer wanting to sleep at night so I slept in during the mornings whenever I could, and then she started waking up at 6-7am regularly, and sorry, but I am not the person who gets up at 5:30 just to have some quiet time. Even if it does help me start my day better. She’s finally evening out her sleep schedule again and I finally have my mornings back so yay!

A few things that I had on my list are just on hold for the time being because of COVID. I’m not scheduling anything with the dentist just yet, we haven’t gotten together with friends, or gone on any sort of vacation or trip yet. I’m hoping we can still plan a weekend trip sometime in the fall, but a full vacation is definitely off the table until next year at least.

I mentioned this already last time, but I did go back to school! I’m attending Southern New Hampshire University and getting my degree in Creative Writing – its a fully online setup with 8 week terms, and so far I’ve finished my first two classes with top grades! I start my next class on Monday and its very exciting and fun for me.

We’re also closer and closer to being able to buy a house! I’m going to go out on a limb and say we’ll probably start lightly shopping early in the fall sometime. Things will depend a little on how quickly we can get qualified for something and then of course, how soon we find something that we like! It’s an exciting thing!


Despite the chaos that 2020 has been already, we’re not in bad shape by any means. There are rougher days and more discouraging days, but I’m still trying to think positive thoughts as much as humanly possible!

Until next week,

Love, light, and kindness, even when it’s hard to see!

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the energy to be mindful

Hello beautiful readers!

In November of 2018, only a couple of months after I first launched this website, I wrote a post called Mindful Monday. It was meant to be a weekly check-in post to help keep myself accountable for whatever goals I was making. I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with it when I wrote that post, but it evolved into something lovely. According to my archives, I wrote a total of 27 posts under that tag – Mindful Monday.

And then, when I was sorting through content ideas for 2020, I left the Mindful Monday idea off the table. I enjoyed writing those posts, but something compelled me to go in a different direction for a little while.

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My goal for 2020 was to dig a little deeper, to bring some more focus back to mental health and how it affects daily life. And for all intents and purposes, I didn’t feel I needed to expend my energy on a weekly/biweekly accountability post when I was doing so much better at keeping up with my planner. So I decided monthly was enough of a check-in for right now, and wanted to focus my writing energy on as many other posts as I could get to.

Being mindful can mean so many different things, and I’m learning to practice mindfulness in different ways. Sometimes it means meditation, sometimes it means just taking a deep breath and finding a way to focus on how things are right now and not how they might be in the future. This has been very important during the pandemic since everyone is under very new and different forms of stress.

I still think at some point I will bring back the idea of my Mindful Monday posts, but this season of my life is very different – everything is moving so much more quickly, I have less time in my day than ever before, and as I work on managing my perfectionism and control issues, my simple planner is more than enough for the moment. That’s if I were to use the title in the same way that I did before. I am considering changing the focus and writing the occasional informative mental health post and the title could be used there too – this idea might come back a little further in the future. We will just have to wait and see.

I follow a variety of different blogs and it’s been nice to see that I’m not the only one having feelings about everything that’s going on. It’s so hard right now not to see the chaos of the entire world and feel an impending panic attack because of it. It’s easy to feel sorry for ourselves at times because we can’t go to our favorite restaurant or just go shopping for the fun of it, and then, if you’re like me, you feel guilty for it because “at least you’re safe and can stay home.” It’s a delicate balance of being incredibly grateful that we are financially stable enough for The Husband to spend a month on furlough and still recover and also just wishing things would go back to normal. It’s complaining about wanting sit-down Mexican food while at the same time planning for another month-six weeks of social distancing for us personally, even after Texas reopens. There are lots of complex emotions surrounding this whole situation and there’s no need to try and explain them away because it’s totally normal to feel this way.

This blog post has been a complex jumble of thoughts and emotions too and it’s turned out nothing like what I planned. And I think I’m okay with that and I’ll go ahead and post it because someday in the future I’ll flip through and contemplate everything that we went through during this season. And it will be a good reminder of how easily we take things for granted.


Love, light, and kindness,

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2020 Quarter One Update

Hello lovely readers,

Somehow we’ve reached the point where we do review posts, and despite the insanity that the world right now, I want to go ahead and put these up. I don’t think anyone expected 2020 to take this direction, but we’re here now so we might as well make the best of it, right?

Since this is a look at how the first quarter of the year has gone, I’m going to cover the list of objectives I made for 2020 and see what’s happened in the past three months. And, because I’m practicing positive focus, I’m going to look ahead a little too.

2020 Objectives

The top three things on my list for this year were my home life, my own business, and my horses. I can’t say my house is really any cleaner, but I do think in a lot of ways it is happier and less stressful, and that is something I’m pleased about. Keeping our home as a safe space for us means we have more energy to help others, which is something I want to do more of in the future.

I haven’t exactly started my own business yet, but for the first time, I’m actually making some decent income from my writing and that is exciting in and of itself! I’ve been loving my little side jobs and I think I’m still reeling a bit from the fact that I’m actually a good enough writer to do this.

We’ve had a few setbacks from the rain and the mucky weather, but otherwise, I’ve been spending way more time with my horse than I have in a long while. I’m really enjoying it. Especially now that I’m a stay at home mom, ‘me time’ is even more important, and riding is just that. I have a lot of ambitions about hauling out to do some shows and endurance work and whatnot, but at this point, it’s a matter of seeing what gets canceled/postponed/rescheduled. My horse saw the vet yesterday and she is proclaimed in great shape for her age – we have his approval to go ahead with all my plans!

I had a list of other things I was hoping would come to fruition this year… some are definitely happening, others are still on the fence. Without much work, while we wait for COVID-19 to pass, it’s hard to continue saving money or planning any new trips so I’m not sure how those things will play out. I have been working to cook new meals every so often, and I have a nice little morning devotional routine that usually happens if I get up on time.

I did end up going back to school – halfway through my first course right now and we already went to our first film festival of the year! Even though I haven’t done well with blogging in March, the first two months of 2020 were great (7 posts each in January and February!) so I’ll just need to get back into a routine.

Again, apart from the last few weeks, I’ve actually been quite happy with how blogging has gone this year. I’ve stuck to the schedule I made instead of constantly making stuff up last minute, for once!


I’m honestly still a little wary of 2020 at this point. Being a US election year means it was already all sorts of insane, and currently The Husband is home and we are self-isolating until… I don’t know when exactly? I know there are so many other things that have happened this year already and it’s only March. I want to say that it can only get better, but I feel like that’s asking for trouble!

If I focus inward, my personal life has been pretty great this year. I have relationships with my family and friends that are better than ever (I think). I have been blessed enough to have opportunities to really focus on healing myself and pursue my goals and dreams. Even if the world feels like it’s falling apart, I still have plenty of things to be thankful for. We can all probably find something, or a few things, to be happy about, even during this dark period.


Love, LOTS of light, and much kindness,

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