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Friday’s Thoughts

Hello beautiful humans!

I should probably post more often again. It would help the things that I DO post to make more sense. Or at least it would help me with the problem I’m currently having where I sit down to write a post and then I feel the need to recap everything that has happened in the 2-3 weeks since my previous post, except that I really don’t feel like doing that because I could create a whole post about those happenings alone. SO instead, we’re gonna do two things. I’m gonna tell you a couple of random things about how my life is currently going (no context though) and then I’ve got a little store of thoughts in my head from therapy and just random internet searches that I wanna share. Here goes! Continue reading →

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Hello Again! A 2020 Life Update…

Hello, my darlings!

It’s been all of two weeks since the last time I posted, but in a lot of ways, it feels like much longer. Life has just been so hectic lately. I’ve got half a dozen drafts sitting in my writing program waiting to be finished, but since I’ve been doing more focused posts lately, I thought it would be good to just sit down and have a chat about how life has been going. I guess its not really a chat though if I’m the only one talking. Eh, whatever. Continue reading →

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Five Years of Choices

Hey there, all you lovely folks out in the big wide world!

I’ve been in that weird mental space lately where I’ve been thinking about everything that has happened in my life and the choices that I made that led to where I am today.

Five years ago I was getting ready to head off to university. According to the plan I had at that time, 2020 would have been the year I would have started teaching/working/something, likely moved into the Dallas area (or another metroplex). I had zero intentions of settling down or having kids for a looonnnggg time yet. Don’t you just love how life doesn’t turn out the way we planned? It’s great.

My brain is very inconsistent sometimes. It’s very hard for me to let go of that one inconsequential thing I didn’t do yesterday and kick myself for that. But do I wish I hadn’t gone to university, struggled really really hard, and spent a crapload of money for three rough semesters that would leave me totally confused about what I really wanted out of my life? No, not really. I could easily look back and see where I could have made better choices or done things better/differently, but I don’t regret the journey that brought me to where I am today.

I learned SO MUCH about music during the years I spent studying and pursuing that career. I may be out of practice right now, but even without playing regularly, I’m still a pretty great pianist and that’s a skill I value highly.

The first semester I spent at university, I leased a lovely little horse and took weekly lessons for several months. It was easy to think that I failed at my horse goals because ultimately it was expensive/time consuming and I ended the lease in order to focus on my music classes. But in actuality, even four years later, I’m still feeling the effects of what I learned in those lessons and from that horse when I ride Lady. That’s worth it.

I might have felt lost. I might have spent my time in questionable ways. I may have spent too many late nights out on the town because I was confused. I might have ended up in the wrong relationships. But I learned from every single thing that happened.

I stressed myself out. I cried. I got a new kitten. I had a lot of panic attacks. I spent hours pounding away on super expensive pianos and questioning my career choice the entire time. I took criticism. I made good and bad grades. I discovered a unique love for music history (that was unexpected). I failed a class for the first time in my life. I struggled with money and then spent half a month’s earnings on my first tattoo – because I wanted to. I made and lost friends. I worked long hours and went into debt for the first time.

Basically, the first few years of “adulthood” were hard for me. And I think, in a way, they should be that way. It was rough being on my own for the first time. Plus, I’m stubbornly independent and will not ask for help unless it’s extremely dire. So I needed to learn a few lessons.

But I don’t regret the choices that I made or the experiences that I had. None of it was a waste of time or money. I didn’t think I would end up where I did, but I’m also not the same person I was five years ago. I still don’t know what I’m doing half the time. I had no idea what I was doing when I said yes to The Husband’s proposal and I had no idea what I was thinking when I said I wanted a baby. But those were the two decisions that led to the most happiness I could ever ask for in a lifetime.

I’m still searching for more, and I think I always will be, to some extent. But truthfully, I could not ask for a better life. I’m grounded and truly confident in myself and what I believe. It’s a nice place to be.

Maybe this week I’ll manage to get out two posts again. I’ve been in the process of clearing more space in my schedule and school is tough this term, so it’s been a juggling act lately!


Until next time,

Love, light, and kindness,

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2020 Quarter Two Update

Hello, lovelies!

Let’s be real – how is it almost July already? I did a double-take earlier this week when I looked at my blogging schedule and saw this recap on there. Time moves so fast.

When I wrote my Quarter One update, we were just seeing the beginning stages of the disaster that is a world pandemic (here in Texas anyway, I know that other places were already being hit hard). I don’t think any of us had any idea that we would still be dealing with this chaos three months later.

With that in mind though, my perspective has shifted, and I’m eyeing my goals/objectives for this year with a different thought process. I had plans to do all sorts of things this spring, but none of that happened. Some are just off the table for 2020 altogether, and some are just pushed to the fall. Hopefully.

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2020 Objectives: The Top Three

For this year, I had three main objectives… improve my home and social life, find ways to work from home, and start riding my horse again.

Our home life is actually quite lovely right now. The Husband stayed home on furlough for six weeks and it was an interesting time. We really enjoyed the extra family time and he got to be there and watch the kiddo pulling up and crawling for the first time. It’s hard to believe she only started doing that less than two months ago – she’s a beast now, and fast!

The lockdown/quarantine/stay at home/whatever thing has really blocked my efforts at overcoming social anxiety. The less opportunity I have to interact with people, the less comfortable I am doing it. I’ve reached the point now where I find it easier to stay home and never speak to anyone ever again. Not ideal, so it’s something I’ll need to work on again. Once I actually leave the house. If that ever happens.

While this month has been slow, I stayed pretty busy with work during the other two months of this quarter, which was a really nice bonus. I chose to go back to school this year, so its been hard to really make headway on creating my own home business apart from my side job, but I think it’s a good situation for the time being.

The third main objective I had for this year was to get back into riding again, and its definitely been happening! Besides a handful of weeks where the weather was just too terrible to be outside, I’ve been able to get out to the farm at least two-three times a week this quarter. I’m feeling very out of shape and all that, but I’ve been riding consistently and that feels great!

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2020 Objectives: All the Rest of Life

I’ve been able to read more, although my motivation comes in spurts, but I’ve gotten through several books, both fiction and nonfiction. I’m thinking of doing a reading list blog post sometime this summer yet!

It’s been difficult to be consistent with my daily spiritual practices the last while. The Tiny Princess went through a spurt of no longer wanting to sleep at night so I slept in during the mornings whenever I could, and then she started waking up at 6-7am regularly, and sorry, but I am not the person who gets up at 5:30 just to have some quiet time. Even if it does help me start my day better. She’s finally evening out her sleep schedule again and I finally have my mornings back so yay!

A few things that I had on my list are just on hold for the time being because of COVID. I’m not scheduling anything with the dentist just yet, we haven’t gotten together with friends, or gone on any sort of vacation or trip yet. I’m hoping we can still plan a weekend trip sometime in the fall, but a full vacation is definitely off the table until next year at least.

I mentioned this already last time, but I did go back to school! I’m attending Southern New Hampshire University and getting my degree in Creative Writing – its a fully online setup with 8 week terms, and so far I’ve finished my first two classes with top grades! I start my next class on Monday and its very exciting and fun for me.

We’re also closer and closer to being able to buy a house! I’m going to go out on a limb and say we’ll probably start lightly shopping early in the fall sometime. Things will depend a little on how quickly we can get qualified for something and then of course, how soon we find something that we like! It’s an exciting thing!


Despite the chaos that 2020 has been already, we’re not in bad shape by any means. There are rougher days and more discouraging days, but I’m still trying to think positive thoughts as much as humanly possible!

Until next week,

Love, light, and kindness, even when it’s hard to see!

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Taking Classes

Hello beautiful dreamer!

Welcome back! It’s a beautiful Friday, and as always, I’m staying super busy. Between blogging, fun side jobs, keeping up with the house, trying to ride my horse whenever it’s not raining, and now keeping a very active baby from eating shoes or climbing shelves, it’s been a bit chaotic lately! But on top of all of those things, last week I started my second college course through Southern New Hampshire University.

My first class was an Intro to Literature course and it was a really good one! I had the best professor who was extremely helpful and gave me every opportunity to succeed. I could not have asked for a better introduction to this school, quite honestly. It was fun getting to read and analyze and write again and I certainly learned a lot.

This time around, I’m taking my first Creative Writing class and so far, I’m enjoying it. It’s a change of pace for me to have more open-ended assignments, but it’s also pushing my comfort zone a little. Which is a good thing, since that’s the whole reason I’m getting this degree, right?

When I first wanted to go back to school, I was a little worried that taking my writing habit from a hobby to something full time like this would take the fun out of it. But so far, it has actually been a treat! Getting feedback and connecting with other people in the same field is very encouraging.

There are six more weeks left in this course and then I’ll have another eight-week literature course before there’s a short break between the summer and the fall segments. It’ll be a lot of work, but hopefully, the excitement I’ve got at the moment sticks around a lot longer.

At any rate, I’m staying busy, and it’s a lot of fun, if quite exhausting. But between work projects and school, I do think my writing will start improving, which I’m very happy about!


Until next time,

Love, light, and kindness!

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2020 Quarter One Update

Hello lovely readers,

Somehow we’ve reached the point where we do review posts, and despite the insanity that the world right now, I want to go ahead and put these up. I don’t think anyone expected 2020 to take this direction, but we’re here now so we might as well make the best of it, right?

Since this is a look at how the first quarter of the year has gone, I’m going to cover the list of objectives I made for 2020 and see what’s happened in the past three months. And, because I’m practicing positive focus, I’m going to look ahead a little too.

2020 Objectives

The top three things on my list for this year were my home life, my own business, and my horses. I can’t say my house is really any cleaner, but I do think in a lot of ways it is happier and less stressful, and that is something I’m pleased about. Keeping our home as a safe space for us means we have more energy to help others, which is something I want to do more of in the future.

I haven’t exactly started my own business yet, but for the first time, I’m actually making some decent income from my writing and that is exciting in and of itself! I’ve been loving my little side jobs and I think I’m still reeling a bit from the fact that I’m actually a good enough writer to do this.

We’ve had a few setbacks from the rain and the mucky weather, but otherwise, I’ve been spending way more time with my horse than I have in a long while. I’m really enjoying it. Especially now that I’m a stay at home mom, ‘me time’ is even more important, and riding is just that. I have a lot of ambitions about hauling out to do some shows and endurance work and whatnot, but at this point, it’s a matter of seeing what gets canceled/postponed/rescheduled. My horse saw the vet yesterday and she is proclaimed in great shape for her age – we have his approval to go ahead with all my plans!

I had a list of other things I was hoping would come to fruition this year… some are definitely happening, others are still on the fence. Without much work, while we wait for COVID-19 to pass, it’s hard to continue saving money or planning any new trips so I’m not sure how those things will play out. I have been working to cook new meals every so often, and I have a nice little morning devotional routine that usually happens if I get up on time.

I did end up going back to school – halfway through my first course right now and we already went to our first film festival of the year! Even though I haven’t done well with blogging in March, the first two months of 2020 were great (7 posts each in January and February!) so I’ll just need to get back into a routine.

Again, apart from the last few weeks, I’ve actually been quite happy with how blogging has gone this year. I’ve stuck to the schedule I made instead of constantly making stuff up last minute, for once!


I’m honestly still a little wary of 2020 at this point. Being a US election year means it was already all sorts of insane, and currently The Husband is home and we are self-isolating until… I don’t know when exactly? I know there are so many other things that have happened this year already and it’s only March. I want to say that it can only get better, but I feel like that’s asking for trouble!

If I focus inward, my personal life has been pretty great this year. I have relationships with my family and friends that are better than ever (I think). I have been blessed enough to have opportunities to really focus on healing myself and pursue my goals and dreams. Even if the world feels like it’s falling apart, I still have plenty of things to be thankful for. We can all probably find something, or a few things, to be happy about, even during this dark period.


Love, LOTS of light, and much kindness,

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Finding A Moment of Hope

Dear beautiful readers,

Life has an interesting way of keeping us on our toes, doesn’t it? It feels like I blinked and suddenly two weeks were gone without a single blog post finished. I’m a little sad about that because I was doing really really well with my planned schedule. But it’s okay. Honestly, the time change hit me kind of hard and then it’s been a struggle to get out of bed without waking up the little one, and now I’m just out of the habit. Ah well.

My last post was on the 3rd, about how I’ve always been interested in anything and everything, but how it’s also changed for me in recent years. The weekend after I published that, we went on a little family road trip to Oklahoma for a film festival. I think we all learned something at that event (well, except for Adaline, who maybe learned that she doesn’t like long car rides? I don’t know) and it was really exciting to have things work out so we could go! Our first family road trip in the books!

We all know that in the last few weeks, everything has slowly started shutting down around the States due to COVID-19. Nothing reminds you of how little you actually get out like preparing to self-isolate but then realizing that you already never do anything. Other than driving to my mom’s to feed the horses, we’re now staying home for the time being. Even though I don’t really leave the house that often anyways, not being able to do so is more annoying than I thought. Let’s just say we’re going to be taking a lot of walks!

Speaking of… I’ll have to post an update on my horse blog yet, but I’m slowly making some progress in that area. The rain has kept me mostly grounded since I’m not about to try and ride in knee-deep mud and get me or the horse or both of us hurt. I finally got on yesterday and did a slow ride, which was fantastic! In the meantime, I have been able to start working with her vet on a good plan to get her in the best shape to be able to trail/endurance ride this year! You know, if there are any events left scheduled after this virus calms itself down (hopefully soon).

I haven’t really announced it very openly, but I started working on my bachelor’s degree a couple of weeks ago! I’m getting my Bachelor’s in English and Creative Writing through Southern New Hampshire University. The courses are only 8 weeks long and completely online, which works out really well for my schedule. So far I’m enjoying my first literature class and I’m excited to see where this all takes me!

Our little baby girl turned 6 months old two weeks ago and I would be lying if I said I didn’t need a good cry that day. She is getting so big and starting to sit up and move on her own. As much as I adore watching her figure out the world, I’m also frantically trying to rein in these amazing, precious moments as she grows up before my eyes.

It’s been a little rough on me mentally lately, partly because of the world’s situation right now. My therapist’s office is closed for in-person sessions until things blow over, and I’m still on the fence about the video sessions they’re working on offering. We’ll see. I didn’t realize how much I looked forward to my weekly session, lol! I’m also hoping that I can slowly start getting my morning hours back, which should allow me to get back to my regular blogging schedule and have more time for myself.

I love this space and I love all my readers! Everyone stay safe, don’t hoard anything stupid and enjoy whatever peace can be found in this crazy time. I’ll try to see you on Friday!

With all the love, light, and kindness I can muster,

-Katharine Marie

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A Closer Look – January 2020

Hi wonderful dreamers!

When I made my objectives for 2020, I mentioned a little about how I’m not doing very specific goals this year, but rather working towards certain priorities and intentions, if that makes sense. So, in light of that, I decided not to do monthly goals either. Firstly, because I’m terrible at updating them every month, and secondly, I wanted to do exactly what I’m here to do today. And that is, post an update about January – not necessarily what goals I did or didn’t do, per-se, but just… what happened, I guess?

So. January has felt very long and very short all at the same time. The Husband and I had decided that I would be staying at home with the Tiny Princess for at least a while, and last Friday, the 24th, was my last day at my full time job. So I spent most of January looking ahead to that change, and then this past week has been a lot of figuring out what that change actually looks like. But I’m loving it so far!

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Here on Elemental Dreamer…

On this blog, we had a variety of content. I talked about the things I’m striving for in 2020 and I rambled about my emotions surrounding quitting my job to be a stay at home mom. I offered a few motivational journal prompts for those rougher days, and then you guys all got to meet me all over again in my updated introduction! I put out a poll asking what kind of blogging content you all prefer – it’s still open if you haven’t voted yet! – and I’m working on using those results appropriately. And then last week, I asked what you would wish for your life to look like in ten years, and offered my own dreams! And now we’re here!

In the Books…

So… surprisingly, I didn’t do half bad on the reading front. I read four books on my Kindle, and started another one that I don’t think I’ll be finishing because the writing is just grating to me.

Country Heaven, by Ava MilesActually a pretty great romance novel, only a little cheesy, and the plot was actually really good!

A Deadly Delivery: A Psychic Cafe Mystery, by April FernsbyIf you couldn’t guess, it’s a mystery story and the main character is a psychic. This one was just okay, not fabulous, but it did keep me entertained the whole way through. Honestly, the psychic aspect of the main character wasn’t that well written, even though she was great otherwise!

Cappucinos, Cupcakes, and a Corpse, by Harper LinYeah, I read several crime novels this month. This one was better than the previous one – no psychics – although parts of it did seem kind of far fetched. I’m just confused – do random civilians go around solving murders all the time, or just in books?

Casino Girl, by Leslie WolfeOkay, fair warning, this is the second book in a series, but I didn’t realize that when I downloaded it and I still very much enjoyed it! Another crime novel, but this time the main character is actually a detective, so much more believable. There were certain aspects that didn’t quite make sense, probably because I didn’t read the first one yet (I’m going to!) but regardless, I was very invested in this story from beginning to end. This is the one I highly recommend out of all the crime novels I read this month!

On the Screen…

I’m woefully behind on the new movies right now – we missed the entire holiday theater selection, but I heard there were some fantastic movies out there! What I did watch, however…

Once Upon A Time… In Hollywood was fantastic. Very, very different, though pretty much normal for a Quentin Tarantino movie, and we actually talked about it the next few days.

I’m still loving the Disney Plus content – makes it super easy to pop a movie on for the Tiny Princess if we need to, plus we got to watch the new live action Aladdin all over again!

I’m currently binge/re-watching Grace and Frankie on Netflix so I can watch the new season, Husband and I are working through How I Met Your Mother (a re-watch for me, new laughs for him) and Grey’s Anatomy is back on!

My Own Words…

I didn’t get as much written as I originally wanted to, but I’ve still made progress. I opened my current book project to start editing, and then decided two pages in that it needed a whole rewrite. So that’s what happening there. Beyond that, it’s just been blog posts for you all!

All Other Hobbies…

By the time this post goes up, I’ll have made my first trek out to the farm to ride my horse! If you didn’t already know, you can read about that under that tab up there that says horses. I’m excited to be riding again, even if its miserably cold and wet right now.

Home and Family…

The Tiny Princess CAN roll over now, she just mostly chooses not to. She learned to growl this past month, and also do that shrill scream that annoys me to no end. But besides some really rough teething moments, she’s been doing really well. We even had one incident where she slept the entire night. Hasn’t happened since then, but it gives me hope!

This past week I helped Husband with one of his video projects by providing some voice overs – new territory for me, but I kind of had fun! I even think I would do more of it for him in the future if he needs it. And I just remembered that he reads this… whoops.

Being home now also means I’ve started to really tackle some of the bigger house cleaning, and I love having a more organized space!

2020 Intentions…

The biggest step I made on my ideas for the year was applying to colleges, and even picking one in particular that I really liked! I’m still wading through paperwork, but hopefully that goes through and I can get my acceptance this next month!


Well, that went on ridiculously longer than I anticipated, but hey, it was kind of fun, right?

What did you do in January?

 

Love, light, and kindness for all,

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Manifest Those Dreams

Hello you wonderful readers!

I’ve written a few posts recently about the things that I wish were different about myself, the beautiful parts of my life, and then an alternative perspective on priorities. It’s been an interesting set of posts so far, and today I wanted to wrap it up a little by writing about the things I want in life. I want to work towards manifesting my dreams and making them a reality.

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Even though I have so much in my life that is amazing and beautiful right now, that doesn’t mean I’m not looking ahead to the future. After all, we’re getting ready to move in the next two months and we’re having a baby in three months, so it’s not like our life is going to stay the same for any stretch of time at all.

Some people differ on the subject, but I definitely believe in the idea that stating your dreams and truly believing in them is a strong way to make them actually happen. It’s not a matter of just saying “this is what I want” but rather of stating “this is a real thing that is going to happen in my future.” It frames the idea differently in your head.

So, with that little rant in mind, I’m going to lay out some of the dreams I have for my life.


I’m going to continue putting my entire heart and soul into my relationship so that we remain just as happy – or more so! – than we already are. This also means continuing to do the work needed to keep our home life as safe and stable as possible, particularly now that we’re starting our family!

I’m going to complete my bachelor’s degree, most likely in English, which will be a great addition to my resume, especially now that I’m starting to make my writing into a side business. This side business is going to become my main job in the near-ish future and we intend to seek out a consistent amount of work with filmmaking and writing so that we can spend more time with our family doing what we love.

Something I’ve always dreamt of and is slowly getting within reach is having a farm. And I fully intend for us to have our own place within the next couple of years – a place where I can keep my horses in my backyard. Where I can have a lovely garden that supplies most if not all of our vegetable needs. Where I can raise a cow and maybe a few sheep and a little flock of chickens. A safe haven for all the country things I’ve always wanted.

Speaking of which, once I am permitted to get back on a horse again, I am going to start riding regularly again (that was the plan for this year until I got pregnant!) and there are already a few endurance rides that I have my eye on for next year – it makes me WAY too excited just thinking about it!

I have several different ideas on how to handle my mental health issues that I intend to put into action at some point this year so that I can finally become a bit more consistent about… well… life in general, I guess!

We are going to have a beautiful little baby and we are going to love her so much it might just kill us both!


What dreams are you going to manifest today?

Next week we’re going to switch gears entirely and look at a bunch of different things, mostly to do with the life of a writer! Stay tuned!

Love and kindness,

Katharine Marie

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Tuesday Thoughts

Hello lovely beautiful people!

It’s been well over a week again, and I feel really awful about the lack of writing/posting lately, so I figured today I would give up a multi-faceted update on my life lately. Or at least parts of it. Hopefully you are all doing well and enjoying the last few days of February (seriously, where has the time gone?!).

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This would be me if I could stay home all day.

Health

First off, I’ve mentioned my health issues several times during the last few blog posts, so it makes sense to mention it again. I have a bigger post about the whole shenanigan planned for March, so I won’t go into a lot of detail here. Mainly, we’re slowly making progress and I’m starting to feel better. I don’t want to jinx myself, but today was the first morning that I woke up and actually thought about getting out and going for a walk before work. I didn’t do it (mostly because I was already going to be running late for work) but the fact that it was a thought in my mind first thing in the morning is a huge deal for me. But, like I said, I’ll update everyone in a few weeks on everything that’s going on!

Ponies

Partly because of how I’ve been feeling lately and partly because Texas winters are really weird and unpredictable, I haven’t been able to spend time with my horse lately and I certainly haven’t been able to ride. And it is driving me crazy. I read a lot of horse blogs in my spare time, which gets me thinking about riding even more. And when it’s pouring rain outside and I’m stuck on the couch, I tend to “window shop” for MOAR PONIESS. Generally I keep my window shopping to the higher-level horsies that we most definitely can’t afford, so that makes my life easier, but yesterday I started browsing some cutesy ex-racehorses who are much more in our price range. And yes, darling husband, if you’re reading this, I know we don’t have a price range right now because we’re not buying a new horse anytime soon. Tehehe. Anyways, please let us get some sun and less mud soon?

School

In completely totally different news, I’m looking at going back to school again. The idea is to switch my major to English, since I’m more likely to end up working with writing and editing stuff than I am to make a big business out of my piano skills. Also, we’ll be able to continue living in this area and keep our jobs, since the degrees and colleges I’m looking at have great online options. I’m not sure when I really want to start classes again or whether all the finances are going to work out, but its something I’m getting really excited about. Learning always makes me feel like I’m working towards something again, in a bit of a different way than setting my own projects and deadlines does. For now, that’s all I’m going to say on the subject, but I’ll make sure to give updates once we figure out details and timelines and what the process is going to look like.

Goals

Now… I know that March is coming on, and super crazy fast too. I don’t understand it either! And honestly, as I get ready to write my post on March goals, I’m constantly reminded of how little I did in February. It felt like a disaster in some ways, just because of the amount of things that got pushed to the wayside, but honestly in some other areas I’ve made a lot of progress. So while the list of things I got done is going to look really pathetic, I’m ready to look forward and see where I can make new ideas. Life is a continuous process, and I’m working on taking it one day at a time right now.

Mentally

Before I make this post way too long and rambling, I wanted to just mention the fact that I’ve been pleasantly surprised over the last month. Despite all the health things going on and feeling somewhat like I’ve failed at a lot of my goals recently, I have not had any major mental setbacks. I haven’t had a real panic attack in at least a month, probably closer to six weeks. And while I’ve had a few rough days, I can’t say that I’ve really slipped into a true depressive patch in approximately the same amount of time. I wish I could say that I’ve just really been able to manage my thoughts and ideas in a more positive manner lately or that I’ve been taking some kind of new vitamin or medication that is helping out, but none of those things are the case. So, for right now, I guess I just keep moving forward! I think the whole idea of taking it one day at a time really helps though, since I start getting more anxious when I try to look or plan ahead more than I really need to.


I’ve already started a post about March goals, which should go up on Friday, so hopefully everything stays positive and good between now and then. For all of us!

Until then, all the love and kindness in the world!

Katharine Marie

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