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Manifest Those Dreams

Hello you wonderful readers!

I’ve written a few posts recently about the things that I wish were different about myself, the beautiful parts of my life, and then an alternative perspective on priorities. It’s been an interesting set of posts so far, and today I wanted to wrap it up a little by writing about the things I want in life. I want to work towards manifesting my dreams and making them a reality.

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Even though I have so much in my life that is amazing and beautiful right now, that doesn’t mean I’m not looking ahead to the future. After all, we’re getting ready to move in the next two months and we’re having a baby in three months, so it’s not like our life is going to stay the same for any stretch of time at all.

Some people differ on the subject, but I definitely believe in the idea that stating your dreams and truly believing in them is a strong way to make them actually happen. It’s not a matter of just saying “this is what I want” but rather of stating “this is a real thing that is going to happen in my future.” It frames the idea differently in your head.

So, with that little rant in mind, I’m going to lay out some of the dreams I have for my life.


I’m going to continue putting my entire heart and soul into my relationship so that we remain just as happy – or more so! – than we already are. This also means continuing to do the work needed to keep our home life as safe and stable as possible, particularly now that we’re starting our family!

I’m going to complete my bachelor’s degree, most likely in English, which will be a great addition to my resume, especially now that I’m starting to make my writing into a side business. This side business is going to become my main job in the near-ish future and we intend to seek out a consistent amount of work with filmmaking and writing so that we can spend more time with our family doing what we love.

Something I’ve always dreamt of and is slowly getting within reach is having a farm. And I fully intend for us to have our own place within the next couple of years – a place where I can keep my horses in my backyard. Where I can have a lovely garden that supplies most if not all of our vegetable needs. Where I can raise a cow and maybe a few sheep and a little flock of chickens. A safe haven for all the country things I’ve always wanted.

Speaking of which, once I am permitted to get back on a horse again, I am going to start riding regularly again (that was the plan for this year until I got pregnant!) and there are already a few endurance rides that I have my eye on for next year – it makes me WAY too excited just thinking about it!

I have several different ideas on how to handle my mental health issues that I intend to put into action at some point this year so that I can finally become a bit more consistent about… well… life in general, I guess!

We are going to have a beautiful little baby and we are going to love her so much it might just kill us both!


What dreams are you going to manifest today?

Next week we’re going to switch gears entirely and look at a bunch of different things, mostly to do with the life of a writer! Stay tuned!

Love and kindness,

Katharine Marie

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Thrills and Fears

Hello you fabulous readers!

This week kind of feels like a rollercoaster for some reason. And it’s only Tuesday!

In case you don’t keep up with me on social media, I was finally able to announce yesterday that I’m taking my writing hobby on a new adventure and finally making the push into the freelancing world as a writer and editor!

Now you can check out my new professional website while I slowly figure out how to break my way into jobs and side gigs that I really love spending time on! I’m a whole mix of terrified and excited because this is what I’ve wanted to do for a long time but have never had the courage or drive to really go for it.

But anyways… starting my new business isn’t what I wanted to write about today. Not really. Or at least not quite yet. We’ll come back to it.

Today I want to talk a little bit about the thoughts, the thrills, and the fears that I have about the other adventure I’m embarking on… the one where I become a parent.

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I wasn’t the girl that grew up dreaming about the perfect wedding or knowing that one day I would become a mom. Nothing against those things themselves, but just that I had other priorities and interests that kept me busy.

It makes me cringe because it’s so cliché but I only started being interested in having kids after my husband and I got together. We’re not going to talk about why that might have happened, but that’s the way it was.

But even after we had talked about it and decided that children were in our future, it still didn’t really sink in just what I was getting myself into. Even now, there are a lot of things about the whole situation that scare me to death and if I wasn’t on this adventure with the person I am I probably would have already died of panic. (Sorry, anxiety talking!)

The logical, rational, thinking side of me keeps me kind of sane. I know that my husband and I are an incredibly good team, that we have the same values and ideas, and that we’ll be able to handle this. I’m aware that I have a big group of friends and family that live nearby who will be able to help me learn what I need to know and take on some of the work when I need the backup.

I am super blessed to have a full-time job right now that is supportive and understanding of how real life works so that I’m not stressed about that adjustment after baby A arrives.

Then there’s the terrified aspect… I am very aware of the fact that I don’t know a lot about taking care of a baby. Honestly I only learned a few months ago how important it is not to leave blankets or pillows in a crib with a newborn. I didn’t really babysit as a teenager and I wasn’t all that interested in small children so information like that never really stuck in my mind.

I’m really scared that I’ll do something wrong and she’ll never be able to sleep on her own at night. I’m afraid that the cats aren’t going to get along with her and I’ll be forced to choose (thankfully I already have a long list of ideas on how to fix this problem if it arises).

And somewhere in the middle of all that fear and panic is the realization that I am already completely smitten with our baby girl. I already love her more than I ever thought I possibly could and even though its still scary I am so excited to be able to show her just how important she is to me and to her dad (who might be even more in love with her than I am). It’s humbling (and frightening) to think that she is going to rely on us for everything, that we’re completely responsible for her.

But the whole adventure is so thrilling too because even now already, before we’ve even met her, she is exactly what we hoped for and so much more than we could have dreamed of.

So the rollercoaster of emotions and anxiety and panic? It’s all there because I never realized how much the process of becoming a parent would take over my entire life.

But I wouldn’t have it any other way.


Love and kindness…

Katharine Marie

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Expectations: An Update

Hello beautiful people!

In January I met my goal for monthly blog posts and wrote 7 of them. Then in February was when I started feeling sick all the time and basically spent my time doing as little as possible – and posted here a total of three times. In March I was hoping to feel a bit better, but that was slow in coming, so thus far I’ve put up three posts again – this will make four!

Anyways, I figured it was about time I wrote an update that was less vague about why I’ve been so absent much of this year. Continue reading →

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