10 Years

Hello beautiful dreamers!

I talk a lot about goals and looking forward and trying to focus on the present and all sorts of stuff like that. Usually I try not to look way too far into the future since it kind of stresses me out, but today I’m breaking my own rule because I want to dream a little.

Today I’m playing a little game I like to call: What will my life look like in 10 years?


I’m really not trying to plan out my life goals for the next ten years. This is just an idea if I pictured what could be possible. I know better than anyone that things don’t go according to plan, but hey, a girl can dream a little, right?

In Ten Years…

We will have a ten year old daughter (sounds crazy now!) and another child as well.

We will have that lovely little place, just a little ways outside of town that’s quiet and convenient and perfect.

I’ll have two reliable riding horses that I can jump, event, or endurance race with.

I’ll be able to work at home doing the writing and editing jobs that I love.

I will finally have my anxiety and depression consistently managed – mentally stability for the win!

I’ll actually have a completed college degree!

The financial security and independence we’re working towards right now will actually be a wonderful reality.

I will be enjoying homeschooling those previously mentioned children and having great adventures doing so.

I hope I’ll still be blogging, if the world hasn’t changed too drastically by that point. Maybe I’ll even still be at this same web address!

And finally, I will have some real finished projects – books, artwork, whatever. Just less half-finished or barely started projects laying around. Ha!

Ten years is a long time, when you think about it. Ten years ago, I had no idea what was in store for me and I had very little idea what I wanted to do with my life. It was a rough journey at times to get to where I am today but my heart is more full than I ever thought possible. Ten years from now, I can only imagine it being even more wonderful.

What do you wish for your life in ten years?

Love, light, and a multitude of kindness,


Posted by Katharine Espinosa in Creative Writing, Life in 2020, Life of a Writer, Lifestyle, mental health, Setting Goals, 0 comments

Thrills and Fears

Hello you fabulous readers!

This week kind of feels like a rollercoaster for some reason. And it’s only Tuesday!

In case you don’t keep up with me on social media, I was finally able to announce yesterday that I’m taking my writing hobby on a new adventure and finally making the push into the freelancing world as a writer and editor!

Now you can check out my new professional website while I slowly figure out how to break my way into jobs and side gigs that I really love spending time on! I’m a whole mix of terrified and excited because this is what I’ve wanted to do for a long time but have never had the courage or drive to really go for it.

But anyways… starting my new business isn’t what I wanted to write about today. Not really. Or at least not quite yet. We’ll come back to it.

Today I want to talk a little bit about the thoughts, the thrills, and the fears that I have about the other adventure I’m embarking on… the one where I become a parent.


I wasn’t the girl that grew up dreaming about the perfect wedding or knowing that one day I would become a mom. Nothing against those things themselves, but just that I had other priorities and interests that kept me busy.

It makes me cringe because it’s so cliché but I only started being interested in having kids after my husband and I got together. We’re not going to talk about why that might have happened, but that’s the way it was.

But even after we had talked about it and decided that children were in our future, it still didn’t really sink in just what I was getting myself into. Even now, there are a lot of things about the whole situation that scare me to death and if I wasn’t on this adventure with the person I am I probably would have already died of panic. (Sorry, anxiety talking!)

The logical, rational, thinking side of me keeps me kind of sane. I know that my husband and I are an incredibly good team, that we have the same values and ideas, and that we’ll be able to handle this. I’m aware that I have a big group of friends and family that live nearby who will be able to help me learn what I need to know and take on some of the work when I need the backup.

I am super blessed to have a full-time job right now that is supportive and understanding of how real life works so that I’m not stressed about that adjustment after baby A arrives.

Then there’s the terrified aspect… I am very aware of the fact that I don’t know a lot about taking care of a baby. Honestly I only learned a few months ago how important it is not to leave blankets or pillows in a crib with a newborn. I didn’t really babysit as a teenager and I wasn’t all that interested in small children so information like that never really stuck in my mind.

I’m really scared that I’ll do something wrong and she’ll never be able to sleep on her own at night. I’m afraid that the cats aren’t going to get along with her and I’ll be forced to choose (thankfully I already have a long list of ideas on how to fix this problem if it arises).

And somewhere in the middle of all that fear and panic is the realization that I am already completely smitten with our baby girl. I already love her more than I ever thought I possibly could and even though its still scary I am so excited to be able to show her just how important she is to me and to her dad (who might be even more in love with her than I am). It’s humbling (and frightening) to think that she is going to rely on us for everything, that we’re completely responsible for her.

But the whole adventure is so thrilling too because even now already, before we’ve even met her, she is exactly what we hoped for and so much more than we could have dreamed of.

So the rollercoaster of emotions and anxiety and panic? It’s all there because I never realized how much the process of becoming a parent would take over my entire life.

But I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Love and kindness…

Katharine Marie

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A Fairy Tale Kind of Day

A Fairy Tale Kind of Day

Hello beautiful magical beings! Today, instead of rambling and being a little depressed… I’m going to talk about my wedding!

We’re getting close to two months now, and in some ways it feels like it was yesterday. But then sometimes I feel like we’ve been married forever. It’s been an adventure and a rollercoaster, and it’s also been really really freeing and calming.

But that’s about the marriage part… I was going to talk about the actual wedding.



The planning stressed me out WAY too much. But honestly that was mainly my fault because I allowed myself to be stressed out. But I will say that gathering together as many people who were willing to help and had a lot of natural creativity was the best thing ever. I was able to sort of spit out my ideas and have someone else run with it and come up with something amazing that I loved and was better than I could have ever dreamed up on my own.


I always wanted an outdoor wedding, unless I somehow got lucky enough to get some kind of super cool castle or Elizabethan style hall. But living in this part of Texas, that wasn’t going to happen, so we went with a beautiful lake just outside of town. We were extremely blessed because we planned an outdoor wedding in the middle of August… but somehow it kept raining during the two months beforehand so that everything was green and gorgeous and the weather that day was amazing, only a little uncomfortably warm, instead of dying of heatstroke, which is what we were all worried about. We had a beautiful backdrop with the lake behind us and trees around. Very lovely.

Our reception was held at a local downtown venue that has a slightly modern or industrial look to it. It is a beautiful place on its own, but it also adapts very well to almost any type of décor, which is why I loved it. There were two levels to it so that we had the lower floor for the dinner reception and the upper floor for cake and dancing. It was barely too small for the amount of people that we had, but I absolutely loved it.



Theme & Colors

One of the first things I decided on were my colors. I wanted deep blue and maroon red. What we wanted to do as far as a theme goes took a bit longer to decide on. I wanted vintage and Victorian and fairy tale and garden party and Beauty and the Beast and everything in between. In the end we decided to do the Beauty and the Beast thing with a touch of everything else. I like to think that it turned out very elegant and timeless, which is what I really wanted.


Wedding Dress

Oh my goodness, I love my dress! I went to several bridal shops to figure out what I really wanted and ended up finding the perfect dress at a consignment shop. It even fit me almost perfectly right off the rack, just needing a bit of hemming. It was a few years/styles back but it was super well made and the beading on it is perfection. I really also loved the train. I originally thought I wanted a ballgown type, tulle skirt, lace top, etc for my wedding dress… but I kept trying them on and not feeling so great about them. This one was amazing and it made me feel like an absolute princess.

My shoes were also one of my favorite things… I actually bought a pair of simple black character shoes that I already knew I loved and dolled them up with a LOT of blue glitter. They were fabulous and super comfortable to wear for the entire evening, which of course made it better because I was able to dance a lot!



We had a salad and mashed potato bar – and there were multiple people who said that they had been skeptical but ended up loving it! It was really cheap to do and very tasty. My mom was awesome and got the whole thing set up, so we didn’t have to pay any caterers or anything like that. And for our cake we also kept it super simple – we picked out a cake topper that we loved and went with red roses for the rest of the cake decorations. And, to go along with the food, we had real dishes and silverware because that was something that I really wanted to have. To me, it automatically adds an extra level of ‘fancy’ to an event when there are real dishes.


Decor and Flowers

This is the part that my awesome coordinator/second mom took over on and I had very little to do with, actually. I was mainly involved with the flowers actually – my bouquet turned out amazing and we did a hoop idea for the bridesmaid’s flowers. There were a lot of roses and greenery involved, in keeping with the themes. My mom made a gorgeous macrame hanging that we had for the ceremony and then moved to the reception site for photos. After deciding to do hoops for the bridesmaids, we added a few more in various spots. We also themed each table for one of our interests or hobbies, like Doctor Who, music, theater, film, literature, and so forth. My favorite part about all the decor was the fact that it was completely not what most people are doing in this area right now. I loved every piece of it.


I keep falling more in love with J every single day and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with him. It’s going to be just as amazing as our wedding day was.

Love, happiness, and all the joy in the world!

Katharine Marie

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