pandemic

Finding the Beauty

Hi all you wonderful people!
I’m here for a ramble today before we close out this month that has been full of posts about thoughts and emotions and dealing with the strangeness that is 2020. It’s been weird and crazy and so, SO, random.
It’s easy to just want to give up on the world, on people in general. Everyone is horrible, nobody is good anymore, everything is just a messy disaster. Even the murder hornets didn’t want to stick around because we weren’t worth their time. That should tell us something. When everyone does nothing except argue with each other and it feels like nobody can agree on anything – that is incredibly discouraging Continue reading →

Posted by katharine_marie in mental health, 0 comments

Re-Direct, Re-Frame, Re-Train

Hi beautiful dreamers!

How many of us have thought and speech patterns that we know aren’t that great? Whether it’s a bad habit of mentally putting yourself down after being clumsy or the way we say “sorry!” after everything, regardless of what’s happening – I think everyone has something that they do without thinking that tears themselves down more than it builds up.
Many people can go through life and be just fine with a few negative thought patterns. It doesn’t affect them. I’m not one of those people. I have several very distinct patterns that can quickly turn into nasty spirals if left unchecked.

finn-nJupV3AOP-U-unsplash

Especially since the pandemic hit, my weekly therapy sessions have become a staple of my routine. I even had a minor panic moment this last week when my therapist said she was going to be on vacation. How would I ever survive?!
Joking aside though, I do rely a lot on the accountability and safety of that hour every week. And a big portion of what I work on outside of those sessions is reframing the negative and harmful patterns that I have, both in my thoughts and my words. She helps me find ways to rephrase things and recognize patterns that I wouldn’t necessarily notice on my own.

It’s a lot of hard work!

The longer a particular pattern has been in place, the longer it takes to work through it. These patterns are, quite simply, memorized brain responses, so the process of re-framing a thought really means re-training your brain. Which equals some hard work because thoughts are sneaky and like to creep through when you’re least expecting them. It’s a daily thing and can require lots of conscious effort for quite a while, depending on how long it has been a habit. Just like any other habit that you might want to create or stop, your brain’s habits are also challenging.

Half the battle!

For me, half the battle sometimes is simply recognizing a pattern that I don’t want to continue. This is where a therapist can come in handy because they are listening to you and hear things much more objectively than you do. Plus they don’t have your history with whatever pattern or thought process it is, so they can point out things that you might not otherwise see for yourself.

Some examples might be…

Following a spiral of worst-case scenarios in your head.
Mumbling “stupid” under your breath whenever you drop something.
Judging yourself mentally every time you catch your reflection in a mirror.
Apologizing for being enthusiastic about something when talking to a friend.
Immediately assuming someone is mad at you because they don’t respond right away.

And so on and so forth. There are a million different examples I could give, but I’m sure the ones I mentioned already struck a chord with a few people. It’s hard to acknowledge these things sometimes, but being able to recognize and point out a negative pattern is the beginning of the road.

In my personal life…

I do rely on my therapist a lot to help me recognize when I’m speaking in a way that isn’t positive or loving to myself. Having that outside voice helps a lot. I have found my own patterns though in the past, usually by flipping through past journal entries that end up making me cringe. Sometimes even by listening to someone else and realizing that they’re not being kind or gracious to themselves has flipped a switch for me, causing me to acknowledge that I do the same thing to myself. Ouch.
As I mentioned, acknowledging the pattern as a problem is half the battle. Once I see what I’m doing wrong, I’ll notice it every time and sometimes that’s enough to stop me in my tracks. Other times, especially when its something that I’ve been internalizing for many many years, its a lot harder. In those situations, I usually have to dig a little deeper inside myself and find the root of that pattern. Maybe its something that I was told as a child that I shouldn’t have clung to, but did anyway. Regardless, if I can find the root of the issue, I can start to work through it and make a stronger effort to change my habits, and my heart as well. It’s challenging, for sure, but so very worth it. There are days that I struggle more than others, but that’s what life is, right?
Is there a thought or speech pattern that you notice in yourself that isn’t kind or loving? What is it that you need to begin that change in yourself?


Love, kindness, and lots of light,
untitled

Posted by katharine_marie in Anxiety, Depression, General, mental health, 0 comments

The Basics of Setting Boundaries

Hello beautiful people,
I wrote on Tuesday about how difficult some days are and gave a few ideas on how I’ve been dealing with them, maybe even making them a little bit better. This whole week has been a bit hard for me – I’m working through some personal stuff and learning about my limits, including what it means to set boundaries.
Boundaries are one of those things that people can get offended about really easily. Especially when it comes to setting limits with people, it can easily come across as being rude or selfish. And it really shouldn’t be that way, not if we do it with the right attitude and with a spirit of love.

Setting Boundaries

Recognize a Need

I’m not talking about someone you don’t like and just don’t want to talk to anymore. Unless you have a deeper intention behind it, that’s probably bordering on being a little rude. But recognizing when someone is a constant drain on your emotional and mental health or understanding that unless you can agree to disagree there should probably be certain topics that are off-limits? That’s totally okay. It’s one thing to do things that are uncomfortable or out of our comfort zones sometimes and a completely different thing to allow anything and everything into our lives – that’s unhealthy.  Certain situations just need to be worked through, others need boundaries and limits.
It’s hard to know sometimes. I totally get it. I’m the first one to question my decisions in these kinds of situations and I tend to waffle back and forth before making up my mind completely. Just remember – that thing I said about a spirit of love? That thing helps qualm those uncertainties and fears 99% of the time.

Know Yourself and Your Limitations

Have you taken the time to understand yourself and your own limitations? That can be key to knowing how to handle external influences. There are certain areas of life in which I have set boundaries for myself – not because of other people exactly, but because I know what my triggers and weaknesses are, which enables me to avoid situations and circumstances that will bring out less than my best.
It’s so easy to blame other people for our own lack of self-control or whatever the problem might be. And I don’t say this to let everyone else off the hook because I think everyone should be working on being the best version of themselves. But the reality is that we don’t have the power to change other people. We CAN work on ourselves. And by demonstrating good self-care and setting boundaries, we can actually help others more than we might think. But first and foremost, it’s about knowing our own limitations and understanding who we are.

Know What To Do

When it comes to the actual process of setting a boundary, that’s where it can get a little tricky. But it doesn’t have to be complicated. One of the easiest things you can do is curate your social media feeds. You don’t necessarily have to block people or whatever, but there’s a lovely little “unfollow” or even just a “mute” button on Facebook for the times you need it. (Not that you should only be seeing the people who agree 100% with your opinions, but some people have no concept of limits or useful discussion and that serves nobody.) It’s the little things sometimes.
Other circumstances aren’t nearly so easy though. Sometimes it’s choosing not to go somewhere where you know you’ll be around someone who always seems to push your buttons. If and when you can handle being around that person again, you can re-evaluate that limit, but especially if you’re working through something and you know that talking to that person would undo the progress you’ve made, maybe its best to just stay away for the time being.
I am the QUEEN of ghosting people, but I’ll also admit that it is not a healthy way to deal with things. Something I have done before though, is responding to someone when I’m in the right frame of mind and then muting or hiding them on my phone so that I don’t have to handle the conversation until I’m ready. Don’t feel the need to respond to everyone right away.
Doing something similar in person is a lot harder and I’m still learning how to handle that. For me right now it’s been holding my tongue when other people are having a conversation that I have strong opinions about if I know I’m not ready to discuss things fairly and properly. Sometimes it’s leaving the room. Both of those are getting easier to do, and something I’m trying now is what I call “exiting” a conversation. If things are getting heated or frustration is building up, there should be no shame in saying, “This conversation isn’t healthy for our relationship. Why don’t we come back to this when we’re feeling calmer and more in control of our feelings?” Being firm and actually walking away if needed would be the next step.
Sadly, there is still a lot of judgment passed on those who choose to set boundaries for themselves. It can be hard to hear that someone doesn’t want to speak to you, I get that. But, again, we’re not going to change each other’s minds by having a yelling match. Choosing to have a calm, insightful conversation is much better. And if someone isn’t capable of talking about certain topics without getting hateful or judgmental, then the consequence may be distancing yourself for a little while, as painful or hard as it may be.
Is there an area of life that you feel could use some boundaries or limitations for your own emotional or mental health? What’s holding you back from setting that boundary?

Love and kindness,
I’m always here for you.

 

Posted by katharine_marie in Anxiety, Depression, General, mental health, 0 comments

Recognition

This post was supposed to be out yesterday but I got flattened by a migraine, so here we are instead!

Hello lovely dreamers!

I don’t think it matters what side you’re taking, which opinion you have, or any of that. Everybody is being affected in some way by the state of affairs in the world today. Everybody that I know has taken some sort of mental health hit this year. It’s hard. We weren’t made to live through things like this and thrive at the same time. It’s okay to struggle, to have a difficult time dealing with change, and want to cry, argue, fight, etc.

I know for myself, it’s been hard lately to take a step back and look at the big picture. I’ve found myself caught up in details, in the anger that is circulating, especially in our small town, and I’ll admit that I succumbed to a bit of the hatred that I normally avoid like the plague (hahahh sobbing).

ryan-plomp-0iPebSCgKoA-unsplash

Photo by Ryan Plomp on Unsplash

My husband is the best. We see eye to eye on basically every single thing and we are able to talk about everything in a way that makes me calmer, balanced, and more centered. I love our relationship.

But the last month has seen his work hours getting longer and longer. We basically expect a 12 hour day 5 days a week at this point and because he’s working outside in the Texas heat, and wearing a mask out in that heat, he’s exhausted when he gets home. I love him for working so hard and taking care of us, but it has been difficult to deal with the fact that we rarely get much time to really talk and be together. It took me far too long to realize that was why I was being so emotional and feeling so frustrated all the time – because I wasn’t getting the things I wanted. I was trying to be “okay” with the work situation and that irritation was just spilling out in other ways.

Last week I took some time to myself. I reconnected with my spirituality a little bit again and worked on answering some questions that had been floating around in my head. It’s easy, especially when running low on sleep, to just avoid doing the hard things and taking care of yourself emotionally. I had just been surviving for a while now and I can only do that for so long before it starts to really affect me.

But the frustration doesn’t just go away. Taking care of myself and trying to be okay with things that rub me the wrong way only lessens it a little bit. I’m starting to realize what triggers the negative emotions like frustration and bitterness and when I feel that happening, the best thing to do is to step away and focus instead on something that will fill me, like laying down on the floor and playing with my daughter or having a dance party in the living room. Those things help, regardless of how inconsequential they might seem in the moment.

It’s funny. I don’t claim to be perfect or whatever, but I do think I usually do a good job of seeing and recognizing problems within myself or my behavior before they become real problems. Right now though, it feels like I’ve been blind to a lot of things that were just building up inside of me. And it’s a challenge to figure out what to do with the emotions now that I’ve identified and validated them.

So yeah. I guess that’s where we’re at right now. I do want to say though, that I don’t post things like this for a reaction or for any other superfluous or selfish reason. I post things like this as an insight into my own mental health journey so that other people can know that they’re not the only ones struggling. I know, for myself, that reading other people’s stories can really make me feel less alone and less terrible about myself. Just keeping it real here, that’s all.


I love each of you readers so much! I’m sending out all the light and socially distant hugs today and wish you all a great rest of your week!

untitled

 

Posted by katharine_marie in Anxiety, Depression, Life in 2020, mental health, 0 comments

2020 Quarter Two Update

Hello, lovelies!

Let’s be real – how is it almost July already? I did a double-take earlier this week when I looked at my blogging schedule and saw this recap on there. Time moves so fast.

When I wrote my Quarter One update, we were just seeing the beginning stages of the disaster that is a world pandemic (here in Texas anyway, I know that other places were already being hit hard). I don’t think any of us had any idea that we would still be dealing with this chaos three months later.

With that in mind though, my perspective has shifted, and I’m eyeing my goals/objectives for this year with a different thought process. I had plans to do all sorts of things this spring, but none of that happened. Some are just off the table for 2020 altogether, and some are just pushed to the fall. Hopefully.

giammarco-boscaro-UkOpMcslmX8-unsplash

2020 Objectives: The Top Three

For this year, I had three main objectives… improve my home and social life, find ways to work from home, and start riding my horse again.

Our home life is actually quite lovely right now. The Husband stayed home on furlough for six weeks and it was an interesting time. We really enjoyed the extra family time and he got to be there and watch the kiddo pulling up and crawling for the first time. It’s hard to believe she only started doing that less than two months ago – she’s a beast now, and fast!

The lockdown/quarantine/stay at home/whatever thing has really blocked my efforts at overcoming social anxiety. The less opportunity I have to interact with people, the less comfortable I am doing it. I’ve reached the point now where I find it easier to stay home and never speak to anyone ever again. Not ideal, so it’s something I’ll need to work on again. Once I actually leave the house. If that ever happens.

While this month has been slow, I stayed pretty busy with work during the other two months of this quarter, which was a really nice bonus. I chose to go back to school this year, so its been hard to really make headway on creating my own home business apart from my side job, but I think it’s a good situation for the time being.

The third main objective I had for this year was to get back into riding again, and its definitely been happening! Besides a handful of weeks where the weather was just too terrible to be outside, I’ve been able to get out to the farm at least two-three times a week this quarter. I’m feeling very out of shape and all that, but I’ve been riding consistently and that feels great!

nathan-boadle-pJJUHnEOR3s-unsplash

2020 Objectives: All the Rest of Life

I’ve been able to read more, although my motivation comes in spurts, but I’ve gotten through several books, both fiction and nonfiction. I’m thinking of doing a reading list blog post sometime this summer yet!

It’s been difficult to be consistent with my daily spiritual practices the last while. The Tiny Princess went through a spurt of no longer wanting to sleep at night so I slept in during the mornings whenever I could, and then she started waking up at 6-7am regularly, and sorry, but I am not the person who gets up at 5:30 just to have some quiet time. Even if it does help me start my day better. She’s finally evening out her sleep schedule again and I finally have my mornings back so yay!

A few things that I had on my list are just on hold for the time being because of COVID. I’m not scheduling anything with the dentist just yet, we haven’t gotten together with friends, or gone on any sort of vacation or trip yet. I’m hoping we can still plan a weekend trip sometime in the fall, but a full vacation is definitely off the table until next year at least.

I mentioned this already last time, but I did go back to school! I’m attending Southern New Hampshire University and getting my degree in Creative Writing – its a fully online setup with 8 week terms, and so far I’ve finished my first two classes with top grades! I start my next class on Monday and its very exciting and fun for me.

We’re also closer and closer to being able to buy a house! I’m going to go out on a limb and say we’ll probably start lightly shopping early in the fall sometime. Things will depend a little on how quickly we can get qualified for something and then of course, how soon we find something that we like! It’s an exciting thing!


Despite the chaos that 2020 has been already, we’re not in bad shape by any means. There are rougher days and more discouraging days, but I’m still trying to think positive thoughts as much as humanly possible!

Until next week,

Love, light, and kindness, even when it’s hard to see!

untitled

Posted by katharine_marie in Life in 2020, Setting Goals, 0 comments

some thoughts.

Hello lovely readers,

I hope this finds you well and happy! Texas is progressively moving to open back up from all the COVID-19 restrictions and as I mentioned in my Instagram post yesterday, The Husband is back at work this week. I love being home with our baby girl, but we had both gotten used to having him around all the time and I think we both miss him quite a bit right now. I’m feeling a lot of emotions about everything and it kind of sucks at times, but it’s the way things are right now and I’m just grateful that we’re still all healthy and stable.

tim-foster-BeDY9KuP0sI-unsplash

Photo by Tim Foster on Unsplash

I’m not writing today to share some insightful wisdom or anything like that, just to catch up and check in and help get my writing habit back on track. I started my second college course yesterday as well and this one is writing-centric, so I’m excited to see what I learn from it.

I’ve only been out to the farm to see my horse a handful of times. Mostly because I felt like I needed to spend as much time bonding with my little family during this stay-at-home phase as I could. Plus, the last time I went to go riding my horse spooked at her own poop, so we’re solidly in the spring crazies stage, which means riding can be hit or miss sometimes!

But staying home is so worth it too… Tiny Princess learned to pull herself up, has mostly figured out crawling, started eating finger foods, and even knows how to say mama and dada, although she’s very selective about when she chooses to say them.

There’s not much else to mention at the moment – I’m working on Friday’s post and then hopefully everything gets back on schedule, at least for a little while!

Love, virtual hugs, light, and kindness,

Katharine Marie

Posted by katharine_marie, 0 comments

5 ways to cope with stress

This post is up later than I had planned because I wrote it and got it ready to go and then promptly forgot to actually post it. Whoops.

Hello wonderful readers!

I hope everyone is still managing to stay safe and healthy through the pandemic – it’s definitely not easy! I take precautions whenever I have to go get groceries, and I hate wearing masks because hello! claustrophobia! But I keep reminding myself that this will only be temporary. One day, hopefully not too long from now, we won’t have to worry so much about being around other humans again. Won’t that be nice? I just want an evening out or to be able to go to the movies. Very silly things, but I’m allowed to feel a little selfish sometimes, I think.

Even though my personal life has only changed a little bit, I still find that my anxiety levels have been higher. The main reason, of course, is the uncertainty and the unpredictability. Husband has been on furlough for just over a month now and even though we have been and are still financially stable, it’s the uncertainty that stresses me out – not knowing when that consistent paycheck will be back. As someone who likes to plan ahead, I’ve definitely been forced to sit back and just take it one day at a time.

max-kleinen-lMiYuow_KZE-unsplash

Photo by Max Kleinen on Unsplash

Everyone has different ways of dealing with their stress and coping with the chaos that is the world right now. And even if we take the pandemic situation completely off the table, we still all deal with these feelings at some time or other. I sometimes find it interesting to see how others handle anxiety because its usually slightly different than mine – even The Dear Husband has some anxieties as well and he deals with it in a vastly different way than I would. It’s kind of fascinating, or it would be if I wasn’t talking about STRESS. Hahaha…

Breathing is one of the things I do the most. (I mean, duh.) There are a million techniques to calm anxieties with the breath alone – like the 4-7-8 method, for example. Just simple deep breathing is helpful though, nothing special.

Grounding can also help pull my mental state out of whatever funk I was in before. My current technique is a 54321 idea, where you identify 5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste. It can be very helpful to just refocus on the immediate surroundings and bring yourself back into the moment.

Singular Focus. If I find that I’m so stressed I can’t even focus on the above grounding technique though, I’ll focus instead on only one of my senses at a time, either by burning a candle or incense so that my sense of smell is activated or by listening to music as a way to bring my mind back whenever it wanders across the line into chaotic territory.

Writing things down is one technique that my therapist constantly reminds me to do as well. Free-writing or association isn’t easy for me as a very precise writer, but I’ve been taking the time to practice because sometimes it really does help to braindump, and having the option is great.

Acceptance can also be a way to overcome some of the really tough spots. Denying the negative feelings that come up doesn’t really help because it doesn’t deal with them, it merely shuts them up in a box and puts them away. Acknowledging that “yes, I am angry and that’s okay” can really provide a chance to FEEL that emotion and then maybe uncover a way to move past it. This is also something that is super hard for me because I don’t like negative feelings so I beat myself up over them and can never move past them. The handful of times that I’ve actually sat down and acknowledged that I was feeling guilty or sad and allowed myself the chance to just be with those emotions for a little bit, I’ve been able to process and work through them much better.

Obviously, none of these are perfect ways to overcome stress and anxiety, but they are definitely good ways to cope and start working through some of the issues. With all the chaos in the world right now, I think everyone is going through some added stress, and it is far too easy to let things turn into a vicious cycle which can then be difficult to break free from. But identifying the issue is sometimes half the battle. We can do this!


Love, light, and kindness,

untitled

Posted by katharine_marie in Anxiety, General, Life in 2020, Life of a Writer, Lifestyle, mental health, Setting Goals, 0 comments

the energy to be mindful

Hello beautiful readers!

In November of 2018, only a couple of months after I first launched this website, I wrote a post called Mindful Monday. It was meant to be a weekly check-in post to help keep myself accountable for whatever goals I was making. I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with it when I wrote that post, but it evolved into something lovely. According to my archives, I wrote a total of 27 posts under that tag – Mindful Monday.

And then, when I was sorting through content ideas for 2020, I left the Mindful Monday idea off the table. I enjoyed writing those posts, but something compelled me to go in a different direction for a little while.

laura-barbato-67Ec0WdhVps-unsplash

My goal for 2020 was to dig a little deeper, to bring some more focus back to mental health and how it affects daily life. And for all intents and purposes, I didn’t feel I needed to expend my energy on a weekly/biweekly accountability post when I was doing so much better at keeping up with my planner. So I decided monthly was enough of a check-in for right now, and wanted to focus my writing energy on as many other posts as I could get to.

Being mindful can mean so many different things, and I’m learning to practice mindfulness in different ways. Sometimes it means meditation, sometimes it means just taking a deep breath and finding a way to focus on how things are right now and not how they might be in the future. This has been very important during the pandemic since everyone is under very new and different forms of stress.

I still think at some point I will bring back the idea of my Mindful Monday posts, but this season of my life is very different – everything is moving so much more quickly, I have less time in my day than ever before, and as I work on managing my perfectionism and control issues, my simple planner is more than enough for the moment. That’s if I were to use the title in the same way that I did before. I am considering changing the focus and writing the occasional informative mental health post and the title could be used there too – this idea might come back a little further in the future. We will just have to wait and see.

I follow a variety of different blogs and it’s been nice to see that I’m not the only one having feelings about everything that’s going on. It’s so hard right now not to see the chaos of the entire world and feel an impending panic attack because of it. It’s easy to feel sorry for ourselves at times because we can’t go to our favorite restaurant or just go shopping for the fun of it, and then, if you’re like me, you feel guilty for it because “at least you’re safe and can stay home.” It’s a delicate balance of being incredibly grateful that we are financially stable enough for The Husband to spend a month on furlough and still recover and also just wishing things would go back to normal. It’s complaining about wanting sit-down Mexican food while at the same time planning for another month-six weeks of social distancing for us personally, even after Texas reopens. There are lots of complex emotions surrounding this whole situation and there’s no need to try and explain them away because it’s totally normal to feel this way.

This blog post has been a complex jumble of thoughts and emotions too and it’s turned out nothing like what I planned. And I think I’m okay with that and I’ll go ahead and post it because someday in the future I’ll flip through and contemplate everything that we went through during this season. And it will be a good reminder of how easily we take things for granted.


Love, light, and kindness,

untitled

Posted by katharine_marie in General, Lifestyle, mental health, 0 comments

the night owl life

Hi beautiful readers!

This is our third (fourth?) week of social distancing and I think it’s safe to say that we’ve been getting a little bored around the house. Of course, having a 7 month old who is trying to explore keeps things interesting, but still. We have found ourselves unsure what to do after 8pm when she’s asleep, and yet, somehow staying up until ungodly hours because I guess we have too much energy from not doing anything? I don’t really know. There’s a lot of things I don’t really know right now, I guess!

nathan-dumlao-N3btvQ51dL0-unsplash

I have always had a tendency to stay up late and sleep in. But I’m not all that great at being productive late at night – if I can drag myself out of bed in the morning, then that’s usually my most productive time of the day. And since the Tiny Princess came along, I have had an easier time getting up early because if I don’t get up before she does, I won’t have any time to myself during the day. And that is actually very important to me.

Despite loving to sleep in though, I’m never excited about going to bed in the evenings. Weird, I know. It might be my OCD perfectionist thing, but I don’t like the process of going to bed. Maybe because as soon as I lay down I think of the million things that I did NOT do that day. Or because I never fall asleep easy. Who knows, but even though I rarely do anything after 10pm other than watch tv, I’ll probably stay up late doing that instead of going to bed like a sane person. Ah well.

Apparently most people who are known for being determined and productive and successful have something in common – they are all disciplined in the art of getting up early. And I totally see why that’s true. But there are very different aspects of my brain that are working at different times of day. I will never ever wake up in the morning and be able to jump headfirst into a creative writing idea or an art project. Just won’t happen. But I can organize a blog post, or clean up the house, or something more on the logical side of my brain. And I’ve talked to a lot of people who seem to be the same way.

Would I like to be the person who wakes up early every single day and gets a whole bunch of stuff done before 8am? Yeah, that sounds really productive and nice and also completely not for me. I’ll stick to getting up early enough to have alone time before the Princess wakes up and staying up later than I probably should. Because I can!

Although a lot of the time, the 11-12 hours of sleep that the Tiny Princess is getting sounds really really amazing, don’t you think?

And yes, I absolutely just made a blog post rambling about sleep and early mornings. Quarantine is getting to me, y’all.


Love, light, and kindness,

untitled

Posted by katharine_marie in Anxiety, Depression, General, Life in 2020, mental health, 0 comments

March 2020 – A Closer Look

Hello beautiful readers!

March was a full blown adventure, wasn’t it? I feel like we started out strong and then slowly devolved into “the world is ending.” So that’s great. I wasn’t sure how to write this post, exactly, but then decided that I would just focus inward a little. We’re always going to remember the spring of 2020 as the time of the world pandemic, so why not take a look at some other things.

photo-1524679166686-04237b4667b4

What happened in March?

Here on Elemental Dreamer…

This was my worst month so far, blog post wise – including this one, I posted four times. Last Friday was my quarterly post, checking in on some of those ideas I was hoping to push for in 2020. Before that, I posted a little update letter to try and find some hope in the chaos of current events. And at the very beginning of the month I had a post about how I handle being interested in everything all the time.

In the Books…

Definitely my worst month to date. In the spirit of honesty, I’ve been super anxious and when I’m super anxious I read fanfiction and trashy romance novels – just a coping mechanism, I guess. I pulled out A Wrinkle in Time yesterday to make a point after we watched the latest awful movie rendition and now that it’s sitting out, I may read it. Who knows.

On the Screen…

We finally finished watching How I Met Your Mother. Since I’d already done it once, I forced Juan to make it through that horrendous final season just to reach the end.

I started watching The Voice on Hulu, and I’m enjoying this season! For some reason I love judging people on TV – a guilty pleasure maybe? I don’t know.

We watched the new live-action Dumbo, the 2018 version of A Wrinkle in Time, and a whole lot of kids cartoons.

Writing Things Down…

Sadly, I did not do any fiction writing this month. I’m really looking forward to doing a little bit in April if I get the chance. But I have been able to do some essay writing for a job and of course, journals and short essays for school!

Other Hobbies…

After half the month off, in the last week and a half, I’ve been able to get back to riding and it’s been great fun, just like always.

I’ve still been baking and cooking and not doing too bad a job! Everything gets eaten, so we’re enjoying it I guess! Last night I did cinnamon rolls and other than being a teensy bit overbaked, they were scrumptious! I need another one now….

Home and Family…

Well… as of last week, The Husband is on leave from work and we are social distancing/self isolating as best we can. That’s fun. It’s not like we ever really went out and did anything, but now the only thing we do is go to my parent’s property or out to the trails to walk. I think we’ve both been adjusting to being around each other 24/7, although the Tiny Princess doesn’t care, she’s just happy to have both of us home.

Overall, things are going well, just trying to keep our heads down until things improve around the world, and keep our positivity up. If you need something to watch, we’ve been watching Jimmy Fallon – he’s doing at-home versions of his talk show and it is weirdly inspiring and makes us smile.


Love, light, and kindness,

untitled

Posted by katharine_marie, 0 comments